what is the need to inform everybody that i’m drowning? can i be dissolved now and take all the hurt with me? why is it necessary to let it out like this?
who are you to be the biggest person in my life and unknowingly force myself into halt when you’re not around? who am i in your world?
do you still care?
Waking up ignoring a dump
seems each night is a bump
moving the stillness of this cloud
may this answer the immense slump
Carrying the unbearable
with sight seemingly unable
emptiness discreetly skin deep
damn make life a bit stable
Yearning to assert your name
above the waters kept me sane
shouting this heart aloud
dawn quite catered the same
Grasp this soul insistent and great
while disbelief in avid fate
draw your bond and depart
cease the sore and endless ache
Of this moon my dearest
passion seem had it blessed
calm this essence make it ease
steal the mist unto your vest
-kiko
It’s been a while since I posted my last entry. Not gonna say sorry coz that’s too much of talking to myself to begin with. Just went thru a lotta shit since then. Hint: Laziness.
Oh well, i’m hoping to share some stuff I’ve been busy with lately. A little bird inspired me to do so… stand by for updates. Or not.
-author
“I had a significant year to cap off my 20s…”
That’s the only line I got when the Rushers forced me for a speech on the night (YM conference) of my birthday. Rolling eyes. Pretty much of what I honestly have in mind, really.
Only because the details were quite overwhelming.
It’s been more than a year since I went here in Kuwait and it’s been tough to see yourself one morning… alone and away from everything else you’ve gotten used to. No acquaintances. No sex. No alcohol. No Maxim. No pork. No friends. No family. This is not ranting, as such, but a simple view of retaliation to what I have gained from listening to C&D (TMR@RX931)… because after a couple of tormenting months later, I found The Morning Rush Forum! Being able to squeeze my way to www.rxmorningrush.com (winks@ms.cherry) was probably of the best thing I’ve done since I left home. I can still remember the silly thing that happened back then where I cannot sign up. Buti na lang Admins are accomodating. Sipsip talaga. I found resort to having people’s wit thrown at my face and also found the luxury to respond and speak myself as well. Soon enough, I’ve been acquainted with the Rushers a little bit closer thru the YM… and I have to say: who needs Maxim and alcohol with these bunch of people?! Perverts pala talaga ang mga yun. For once, Chico and Delle were dead serious.
Eventually, home. 
I never knew that knowing all these wonderfully sweet, libido sensitive, overly intelligent and hopelessly perverted Rushers will be my shelter while here in the desert. Since May 2008, each day brought out the coolest acquiantances, bonds and friendships (with benefits?) the way I never had before. The codenames that I was just delighted to hear during the show came to life… at least online. I came to share a bit of myself and gained a lot more. This… this right here is something I consider as a gift this year. Call it lame, but I dare you to try the same feat as this and the rest of our OFW community out there before doing so. Nagsunget.
I flew away from home yet I got surrounded with an insanely bigger one.
Watta way to cap off my 20s, right?! There, i said it!
My warm appreciation to those who sent their greetings online, on-air, email, call/text… wag nyo nang uulitin yan. Masasaktan kayo.
To purplerose, hunterlizie, evilinside, twistedsunshine and spammuts… wala lang. Gusto ko lang makita pangalan nyo dito.
*walks away farting*
This tag incurred by twistedsunshine. Wala sya magawa, kaya yun, nandamay. Apir!
Ten honest things about myself:
1. Ako ang bumasag ng lahat ng ilaw sa buong walkway ng Building B South Wing of !@#!*(%*#$ College when I was in 2nd Year High School. That was before Foundation Day, epekto siguro ng sweet-style macaroni. Sue me.
2. I don’t eat nuts from chocolate bars or ice cream. I’ll give it lick or succumb the bastard, but I won’t chew it.
3. Hindi pa ako nakakasakay ng pampasaherong barko.
4. I look up to Sir Joey de Leon as my “mentor”. I love his life.
5. Madali ako magsawa, I like trying new things and I don’t stick to one stuff for too long.
6. Grade 1 ako nagkaroon ng first crush, si Ms. Mary Grace M. delos Santos. Tiningala ko siya hanggang matapos ng Elementary, she became THE Valedictorian. If I can redo stuff, I could have distracted her to claim better academic recognition.
7. I have a tenuous male pattern baldness.
8. I stare at a dirt bike like I’m staring at a Maxim centerfold specially when it’s from the Yamaha YZ Series.
9. I believe people choose what they wanna believe regardless of its nature or philosophical verity.
10. I have a feminine handwriting.
Here are the rules:
When accepting this auspicious award, you must write a post bragging about it, including the name of the misguided soul who thinks you deserve such acclaim, and link back to said person so everyone knows he or she is real. Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design. Or improvise by including bloggers who have no idea who you are because you don’t have 7 friends. Show the 7 random victims’ names and links and leave a harassing comment informing them that they were prized with “Honest Weblog.” Well, there’s no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon. List at least ten honest things about yourself. Then, pass it on!
The seven people I’d be tagging:
-Purplerose
-Evilinside
-Hunter Lizzie
-Doornextdgirl
-Bob Ong
-Jordana Brewster
-Obi Wan Kenobi
